What a mess. Did 4 days inpatient.... ICE after they removed my old port and put a Hickman catheter in. Got really sick from the dalotin(sp?) pain med. yuck. Just got home last night. lots of throwing up last night and today. Spent 4 hrs in hospital today getting rehydrated. Got all moved. Living with my grandma now. Quit my job. I miss work. Haven't had enough energy to even ck emails. Very shitty feeling so useless. Hoping after wounds heal can feel more normal again. Over a year they say with the Hickman hanging out of me. Really take some getting used to. My husband is being so helpful. He is very wonderful. Another week or so and I should be bald. Nervous about that. Ron my hubby saw a girl the other day w/out hair. Was quite a shock for him. He said he felt better after he seen she had a smile on her face and was looking well. Loosing my hair... again the least of my worries. So two more rounds of ICE wait 3 weeks go back in for 3 days then another 3 weeks then go back for 3 days.... then they will take out baby stem cells and freeze 'em. Then blast me with some more even worse chemo.... then I think 10-20 days in hospital to see if stem cells re-grow themselves. Chopped off my hair on the 4th. Almost shaved it. Would have been 3 weeks of unnecessary baldness. That’s all for now.

Made homemade rootbeer at grandma's house with Ron, Hailey, and Breanna. I love these moments.